Jeng…jeng…jeng… artis tapuk2 muncul balik…hehe…after so many things happen (indala many sangat…) I finally able to have a time settle down with my fungalize blog (mm..adakah perkataan macam tu ah?)…nasib inda bangas o kan ni blog. Anyway, like to kick start my homecoming by wishing all those mens out there yang suda dianugerahkan gelaran ‘Ayah’ or ‘Datuk’, Happy Papa’s Day!!! It must have been a tiring but hopefully a fruitful moment in being the man of the house. God bless all dads…For those of you who still haven’t wish your pops, you better do so or you will end up like me, who didn’t have anymore chance to say any wishing to her used-to-be-living father. I hate to kick start with sentimental punya story…but since I never talked about him mind as well masuk cerita ja la…its father’s day anyway, what more can you talk about?
I got only 1 picture that I took with my dad and since he past away, I’ve been keeping that picture in my wallet then during my field work for my final year in UKM, I left my wallet outside the tent and gave full ‘permission’ to the rain to destroy it…sad…but I still keep it (asal ada jugalah bayang belakang dia). Coz that’s the only picture I took with him. See if you guys can make out this picture…
So the one holding the balloons of course is me, 5 year old I think…not sure myself. Really sayang la…how could I left it expose in the rain in the first place. Worst thing is, how could I expose my wallet outside the tent in the first place??? (Bongok tul…)Anyway, back to the main topic…ya, my dad, Constantine Kibat (Which most of you wondering where I got my ‘C’ in my name), is a man…that I tidak sempat get to know closely during his lifetime. Probably most of you surprise that I’m saying this, but the truth is I know too little about the famous Uncle Tine, unlike most of his nieces and nephews. I didn’t get the chance to talk to him like a friend (which now I did with my mother), I never wish him happy bithday because his birthdate was uncertain (lost his birth cert), never wish him happy father’s day (because both me and my bro thought it was too ‘corny’ for him), never had a chance to logop with him (which he enjoy most), never share my personal problems with him (too janggal..), and the worst and most regretful thing of all, never said ‘I love you’ which I thought I could save it longer for a best time to tell him.
I remember the day when he showed me this picture. He look…excited, just as the way I felt when I first got my graduation picture. He told me this “bi, ko tinguk dadi graduate suda, nanti dadi mo frame kasi gantung, lepas tu sebelah gambar ko, then ili punya lagi.” How I wish, he was here when I pulled out the pictures from the envelop then showed him, just as he did to me, and how I wish too, that instead of 3, there were 4 person in my graduation picture.
I stealed this from Alvin’s FB (hehe…siou bin…thanks anyway for uploading it) This is taken during my Aunt’s wedding and this is the time he’s drunk, I used to hate him when he was drunk, that’s the reason also why me and my bro hate to go back to Tambunan when we were still kids. He started to do all the crazy things when he’s drunk. But then again I still remember what he said when my mum nag him about that picture “Ai…apa mo sirius…jangan gaduh-gaduh ba…inda salah ba gila2 sikit”
Where ever you are right now, I know you still with us, watching us…God loves you more than anybody else does, He called you earlier than anybody else does. I may used to hate hate you when you are still alive, but deep down inside I need you more than you knew. How I hate Father’s Day, when I see all the children get to hug and kiss their fathers, when I only can cried missing you and wish you were here so that I could hug and kiss you. Rest in peace di, remember us who are still living, strugling and fighting in life. May you find peace in heaven along with ninik.
Anyway, Upperstar is quite a place for an event like this. Nice food and drink, it’s super comfy, great indoor design and it got computers at the side of the table so people can surf, cool! But the price, mmm…berbaloi la untuk kedai macam tu. Thanks Berg for suggesting, kaulah harapan…Check it out!
I can tell by the weird things he said after the party. In case you didn’t notice Cen, sms ko hari tu ayat-ayat dia banyak yg salah posisi! Memang sah orang mabuk yg taip sms!
